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the children were so eager to become rats
imprisoned by the carousel’s swing
that they turned a travesty of the purpose of life
unless life had no meaning
and the sky only meant to look down
on scrap skeletons embedded  in quicksand

the coming wave will wash away
everything that built your love
made you belong
everything that kept you warm and safe
everything above and below that cared for you
forget yourself like other expendable heroes
in a fight for an early grave

nothing comes out of no place
but everything goes in there
tear
who needs this spectacle
when it always rains blood

you have become a scar on my face
young Jesus could have learned how to die in here
hell of human names
I know yours
sheep only do what the devil planned

run
run sheep
the shortest path to the lake of fire
my wars are won before the first shot
hits the chest of another worthless parasite
chasing its brother

I am watching the blue sky
yet burning inside
flame before ash
how did I lose myself
how did I morph into a soul who no longer wants to rest
flame before ash
worlds collide at the best time for a blood sacrifice
run

sheep
run

 

 

 

blessed be
ability to cope
with chronic me
stupid grim
on my face
when I hear myself
bark at hand

blessed be
sweet dream
condensed into flesh
here
sinner awakes
one breath away
from a certain death

the weather was kind this year
the clouds seemed all-natural
the rain outside had no bitter taste
and if all my wishes were to come true
I would irrationally ask for more predictable use of flood
as the unconditioned stimulus in our controlled environment
no
definitely not
can’t call it an experiment
Earth is a nice facility
a little flat
a little round
birds do exist
but my hand is not feathered
what on Earth
would the point be
of no return

I wish I had a fear of no tomorrow
it would make today more precious
ever-wandering me could stop and think
no further than the next meal
next sex
next paycheck from some authority
some social disease like the government

fear of no tomorrow
doesn’t bring peace
but it gives you a chance to live now
whatever now you can hunt down for yourself
or
whatever now follows you behind as yesterday
but it doesn’t really exist
the only thing you need to remember is to stop now
in the middle of the street
and talk to it
like it mattered to you
imagine now is your mother
never far
never a stranger
otherwise now
will be deeply disappointed
it will scream inside like a madman you are
and guess what
you need those lungs for breathing now
not tomorrow
today
try deep

the two of us
got tired of each other
especially me of alien him
God expired
but we can’t go separate ways
as we share the code to my body
hatchery overlords wouldn’t allow it
they need virgin birth
I need peace on Earth
I wouldn’t call it symbiosis
it is an uneasy truce
before all-out war
before I take a pill
to kill the parasite

how do I
born out of that crumpled night
conjure up answers to questions you madly asked?
how do I find your tears in the falling rain I deliberately seeded outside?
how do I turn yesterday into now and forever
as we planned
when together was still an option?
visions of us
easy to say
easy to play the light and shadow games
trading days for happiness or misery
pleasure or pain
insane
insane arrangement
everything remains caught inside
time capsule grows transparent
as desires fade into illusions

 

love is the only exit strategy worth living for

bars of gold
brass medals
iron cross
and you are just a clay figurine
keeping your head down
rushed
running for cover
undone by desires

don’t you think finding purpose masqueraded as finding meaning for too long?
turn around
look me in the eyes
whatever you become I have been before:
a fool

if you see me shed tears
I am lying to you
I am not attached to anything
money
memories
bread
mean nothing since I made sense of my prayers

angels
demons
ready to start over when you are

 

 

 

 

In my world
Earth is a cave
blinded by rotating fireworks
consciousness doesn’t evolve
it expends beyond all concepts
thoughts get corrupted
gravity is a false notion
time a lie

there is the beginning and an end to each life
while existence lasts beyond visible density
In my world
I am not looking for understanding
in the end
the living tree will not feel for a fallen leaf

every man for himself
is the only religious experience
I have inherited from my reptile ancestors
playing observant
silent gods
it doesn’t help me defeat primitive drives
when I am feeding them with all the fire
I can master within the limits of my anatomy
attached to a universal free spirit
cosmos is made of

here
my brain is so much wiser than reptilian reality
the reality I give as little nourishment as humanly possible
to literally
fuck off

cannibal
dark
monstrosity
I try to get away from
before it confuses my priorities
and I am forced to let it feed on me

sir,
you are being hunted
safe houses are hunted
holy waters contaminated
instincts are worked to kill
horses of apocalypse got as savage as riders

tell me something new, sir
tell me what’s on your mind?
since my mind got infected with hallucinations
tell me that
a new generation needs a kick in the face
air heavy with bitterness but I still hope to see people fly
Jesus in lethargy
is this a joke?
let the patience run out and the sky fall down
embrace rising
embrace shining
fireflies escape the system of the jar with light

sir,
why did you shut your mouth?
why did you throw away your madness?
comatose is not good enough
you need to die to be reborn
your soul will peel the paint off the walls
to come back as a body with a face
after it learns to walk on water a step ahead
of the vampire below
all dust
all lies
I am taking waterfall of darkness
to Sunday dance,
sir
no time
is where I go

life is a pretty radical melody to them
I hope you do not intend to go quiet
put it on fire Kowalski
escalate
Smith
Haddad
Patel

the everlasting message of energy in power
whenever the minds collide
to create thunder
how do you tell motionless and voiceless from corrupt?
wake the synchronicity to defeat the parasite sitting on your lap
listening to your heart
draining all desires
calming the riot with cerebral spells
short-wave deceit eating your brain
just a man
refrain from progression into subjectivity
don’t babysit the impurity of the fallen