muse
there is no way to measure how far I have walked
dragged my two feet on this long
empty road
away from you
away from the coast and days where the Sun rises
to that lonely place named Nowhere Near
being recovered
from fascination and hope
took only a few false steps to spend eternity on a trip
to regret I really live
a trip through my dreams
and all the way through the mist of time and space
to genesis
of what love was supposed to bring
somehow
the virtue of patience is killing my will
and
I am getting used to that annoying fear inside
of never touching your face
while always starring in the eye the fire I am
on you
and you only
sanity
let it burn
as everything does in the deep meditation of life
ashes to ashes are a promise we are pretending not to hear
and then
suddenly
our shoes are walked in circles by millions of strangers
and in the process
we turn
meaningless and forgotten
Hamlet
all mighty
all-powerful
Chaos
its poisons flow with my blood
rivers of betrayal in the ocean of sorrow
abnormal states of mind I had to surround to
and I suffer through them
with no glory to me
my name
or my Savior
murdering eternity for the promise of another living moment
still
slipping away into despair
what a sickening deliverance
in the context of last hour to bring about order
to the world of men
yet
so liberating
not to look into me for salvation
not to become an answer to a question:
to be or not to be
or just remain anything in between still breathing the Lie
and finally
not to fight the wheel of fortune
from turning
worthless to me
Owner of Love
This latest love
is you
I have found it by chance
and it is the youngest among all the others
I came across
while looking for all the wrong answers
to finally being alone
Take it now
and run with it far
before I destroy it
because when I do
it is You, baby
who will be crying
It will become a tear on your beautiful face
scar of unspoken words
vindictive motion of clouds leading to nowhere but rain
I personally enjoy
the intensity of coming to terms
with flames of self-combustion