Chicago

dear authorities
thank you for reviewing cycles of my insanity so quickly
I greatly appreciate your interest in my mental disability
and that besides issues with my large weight and high blood pressure
I bet your agent can help me subscribe to your monthly newsletter
full of valuable information on convenient ways to hang me
or shoot bystanders at the nearest covid-19 test sites
as well as other dedicated to public safety distancing centers
which include but are not limited to
pretty much everywhere in this thrifty municipality
These stubborn individuals surely deserve that
for not wearing protective tampon faces properly
federal government and Jesuits recommend
I always knew you would provide me with the confidence to act myself out
and resist
resist
resist normalcy
in a spectacularly useful to high society and local administration way
as locking me up on a funny farm would be a very undesirable change
in a policy to keep this city ghetto-enclosed
sick
and overdosed on heroin and of course
Whiteness Is Indefensible
Black Lives Matter
Marxism is great if you run out of crack
and yes
ABC
CNN
FOX
please take formal notes as
few sporadic murders will immediately follow this short thank you letter
to democratically and carefully selected by numerous others African mayor
and her white freak “fille de joie” I admire with all my heart
for making me look normal
sharp and collected

 

Promising

I went through a recent case of endless love
mentally sickening my mind
which
I luckily erased
with a new
fresh
equally endless
though longer love
that could last through a second night
but it is a shame endless is boring as fuck
if you are busy with real life
still irresistible proposition
and drastic improvement from the previous cases
I had me addicted to
quick
short
nervous encounters
but somehow it hanged on my words for hours
this endless love
baby-blue sky
warm
promising
clear visibility into random acts
things we have done together
in galleries of forms
in my bed
in my head
now female
turn around
slow
easy
God
stop touching me

I have been fed
my illusion

Suicide Watch

I know the Golden Truth
glorious and beautiful
path through Patience

and I am not afraid of you
on the contrary
be afraid of me
Illuminated Silence
finally, you are as quiet as surprised
to see me being consumed by fire
burnt into a diamond of answers

just a wild guess as far as the problem I have
and always have had with this life
is that it ends in an alien expanse called Eternity
behind the veil
out of touch
but I have been walking on the very edge between the two worlds
the two fairy-tales
the whole time
perceptible
painful steps since biological childhood
and out of this state
this process
program
beyond annoying protein quest
beyond the longest suicide watch, I humbly recollect
but the wait is over
inherited chains broke off my neck
and it ends
this uncomfortable transient form
corruptible flesh
converts back into luminous shine
didn’t I tell you?
God is Great

 

idiot

there is so much Unknown
that if we had senses capable of realizing its vast lands
we would travel them in a constant fear
as for me
Everything
is what I don’t know best

trust in divinity of creation
its purpose
it’s guiding light
allows us to breathe freely
and look into the future
with a smile
or is it just
our complete imbecility
that makes us carry on
into the jaws of a trap

Sisyphos
king of Ephyra

explain yourself or stop
you viral
idiot