Restless

once on the other side I will start anew as particle of God
single charge of holy dust
crystal drop in a river of light
twinkle in the Eye
being human down here hurt my guts way too far and beyond reason
so weird to have those attachments to happiness and fear
bipolar fight or flight
and look at all the blood in the sand never drying out
nourishing fear of the future, present and past
even the stars went silent  at the cemetery of sky
mourning its dead and the fate I got from their reckless play above
said too much to them about where I have been
what I have seen behind the curtain of reality that fell on me
but soon I am getting out to pursue another eternity
as it couldn’t wait past this life
it seems
to materialize